Currently Watching Napoleon Dynamite By Jon Heder, Jon Gries, Efren Ramirez see related

my parents are complete and total nazis..i won't be able to do very many entrys anymore because i'm not aloud on the computers. my dad came across my myspace profile and read through it. there were some conversations between me and some friends joking around about threesomes he also saw where is talked about partying a lot....so my parents think i'm a slutty alcoholic dyke...i'm moving out on my 18th birthday. so yeah, for whoever may read this, especially josh, i just want you to know that i won't be online anymore, like ever. but i love you all and if you care enough or anything you're welcome to call me anytime: 618-237-9090. it's absolutely ridiculous that my parents took everything so literal. and now i can't have anybody over because they think i'm a fucking lesbian. my family thinks i'm complete and total trash. i told them they only have to worry about me for another month because i'm getting the fuck out of there...if anybody wants to move in with me they're welcome to, because i could kind of use a roomate. geez....this fucking sucks. just..call me or something, because i could definately use some cheering up. however i did have a pretty good new years...drunk/high. i'm suprised i even got out of the house.

yours truly,

-jaclyn hanner

Currently Playing Such Blinding Stars for Starving Eyes By Cursive see related

what an interesting holiday break i've had thus far..but before i go on i want to dedicate this weblog entry to josh...<3

so xmas was okay and all..i got some things that i wanted as well as some money. but it sucked before then since we got like 8 feet of snow and i got cabin fever something fierce..i do believe i went temporarily insane over that. and it's now the follwoing tuesday and my car is still stuck in it's little garage. i'm seriously thinking about taking an extension cord and a hair dryer..and going to town on that snow in my driveway...because the snow is off the roads by now..it's just in my driveway and i'm pretty upset about it. but oh well...i've been getting rides and going places so i can do things and see people. so that's been allright..sunday night i went to an stlpunk xmas shindig that was pretty damn cool. me and jaleigh danced..met boys..danced with boys...moshed with boys..talked with boys..but sadly..i did not make out with any boys. oh well. it was a good time seeing femme fatality and caressing them and getting off by doing so...it was damn hot. jaleigh and joe are so cute together. and then later that night a drunken dane came over and grabbed my ass..and said it was spectacular...out on my driveway at 4am. so yesterday was kind of lame..i sat around the house and went to work. then last night after work me and andrea were seriously in need of some tbell...and, her car broke down halfway there..we were thinking about walking but it was 18degrees outside..so not getting hypothermia won. we called her boyfriend to come get us..but..his keys were in her car. so we had to wait for 30mins for her dad to come rescue us..and after all that..still no tbell.it was a very sad time i must say...but today me and jah hung out with mclelland..he rescued us from our snowed in driveways and took us to our second home..a lovely little gas station called razzles....mountain dew and mini tacos galore. and now i'm here typing and thinking about calling in to work tonight so i can go party and such..i think it's necessary..considering my past week.

so i love it how all my friends have boyfriends...that's really nice. i don't care though, i'm getting the hang of this single thing. i might just be single forever! who knows? unless somebody saves me from my apathy. doubt it.

Currently Playing Thirteen Tales From Urban Bohemia By The Dandy Warhols see related

not if you were the last junkie on earth..i said to the boy that asked me to go on a second date. he looked at me with the most confused look, like i knew he would because he was damn stupid.

this is how it's been...my love life..or lack thereof. the romantic holocaust really is quite fitting. but the thing is, i don't mind it anymore. i'm actually content with who i am now. even though i get lonely sometimes, i have people to talk to and places to go, and things to keep me occupied. i'm playing it safe...this way i can't get hurt. i figure that's how it needs to be for awhile, because i really don't think i can handle another heartbreak...it might mentally destroy me again and give me a complex for life.

ciggarettes and mountain dew will never leave me, they make me feel refreshed/addicted/sick...kind of like love. it's wierd how things work out, huh? i think i will be much happier when i leave this place, there's nothing here for me anymore. i really need to branch out and explore new places, new people, and have new experiences. i think a radical change would be the best thing for me. which is why i am taking a year or two off of school to move to st. louis. i love that city. maybe there's love...or sex...or a hardcore spooning session waiting for me there...? well none of that is here. these boys have taken immaturity to a whole new level. i do believe mt. vernon has something in the water...something that makes all the boys think with the wrong head. it's a damn shame..really it is. but what do i care...i'll be gone soon. on my own little holiday...far away...there to stay...